I licked a chip

I have a confession. I have been wondering what food will taste like after the 30 days are over. I smell it and it smells so good. I have fond memories of what my favorite things taste like. So I did it. I licked a chip. A Wheat Thin Multi-Grain Harvest chip. The chips that I ate before I started the fast and loved. I could have eaten a whole bag in a sitting and probably have a time or two. I saw them. I wanted them. I thought well if I cant eat it then I can lick it and just have the taste of it. I took one out and smelled it. It smelled wonderful. The texture was so nice in my hand. Then I licked it. Then I had to run to the bathroom and brush my teeth! It was like licking play-doh. It was HORRIBLE. It was so salty and just nasty. I cant even imagine what it would have been like to eat it.

Last night we had a store meeting at work and they ordered in food. Pulled BBQ, BBQ chicken breasts, buns, baked beans and coleslaw. For dessert there were brownies and cake. The cake was easy to pass up because the icing looked disgusting. Brownies are my favorite and I love some good BBQ. I wonder what they would have tasted like to me. I have some food allergies so I can tell myself it has those things in it and that usually works for me to not want it.

I keep thinking about my favorite thing to eat. We have an Italian place here called Capri's and they have the best marinated chicken alfredo. I get that with a salad with ranch and then they serve a warm bread that I dip in the leftover dressing. That was my last meal. I want it to be my first but I don't think I will be able to handle such a heavy food right away. I'm kind of sad about that. I miss food. I miss the feeling I used to get from it. I miss being able to go with my best friend Nikki and eat all the time. That's our thing. We go and try new places to eat and often fall back on our favorite, Capri's.

I have to say it is nice thought to be 'freed' from food. Even though I think about it often, its not running my day anymore. I tried on all of old clothes and they fit!!! A size 6!!!! I could wear them out and be comfortable but I want a little more wiggle room in them. Especially when I start eating solid foods again I know some weight will come back. I feel so much like I used to.

OK daily troubles. Its not all good right now. I think I need to up my intake of juice. I didn't have any yesterday and this morning I thought a few times I was going to pass out. I got a V8 Juice and drank that through out the day. I actually still have some left and it was only a 12 ounce bottle. I couldn't handle more than a few sips at a time. Its that way with all the other juices too.

Overall, I feel fine. I have no more headaches. I can't believe I have made it this far! I also can't believe I have gone this long without chocolate. And everyone around me is still living.

a cranberry and non vodka please

One of the perks of doing this is that its very cheap to go out at night. I cant drink alcohol or eat so I got just water and one glass of cranberry juice which came to a total of zero dollars. And I still have a great time.

I have to be honest. Seeing the weight come off this fast is a little scary to me. Last count was 8 pounds in 6 days. Thats insane!!!! It takes me 2 monthes to lose 8 pounds! I wonder if it will slow down towards the end. If not I dont want to lose more than another 13-18. I still want some curves baby.

All right somethings that I am going through right now. my mouth is disgusting. I feel like I have an old sock in it all day and I brush my teeth so much. I am even taking one to work to brush there. I keep drinking water thinking that will help but so far it hasnt. My muscles are sore. I read about when the toxins start coming out that your muscles will hurt. Its only been 6 days so Im not too sure thats the cause. I did lift a lot of bags of dirt and stuff at work.

I want food. There I said it. I have thought more about quitting in the past 24 hours than the first of the week. But the things I want are, fruits and vegetables. I think anything more than that will make me feel sick. I wont quit though. I want the full benefits of a fast and stopping now would be awful. I think the toxins are just now starting to be flushed out and Im uncomfortable with the feeling. Just like being off a drug that made you feel one way and you forgot what it was like to feel normal. Im going to keep pushing through. One week is almost up. Just three more to go.

wow what a difference!

I can tell a HUGE difference in taking the IntraMax. I worked hard all day (yes Trish I really did!!!) and I am still feeling great at 1am. I think about food sometimes and think about what it is I want to eat when I finish. I REALLY want a HUGE salad. I wonder what its going to be like when I start eating again and what foods will have lost their appeal to me. I wonder what foods I will be able to tolerate. I hope I will be able to enjoy some of my favorites like chicken alfredo. But I think that once I am done I will eat a much healthier diet. I do hope though that my cravings and addictions to sweets are gone. I really hope that it is. I have almost made it through the first week. I am so proud of myself. I hope that the next 3 weeks will be just as easy or even easier.

Weigh in Friday ~Day 4~

On the moms board I belong to, we weigh in on Fridays. So here goes. After 3 full days of fasting, I have lost 4.5 pounds. I am 1.5 away from being pre-pregnancy weight of my second child. I hope by the end of the thirty days I will be at my pre-pregnacy weight before my first child.

Yesterday morning I woke up feeling like I had either been out drinking the night before or had used a sleep aid. Just groggy and kind of icky. I had a minor headache too. I drank a lot of water right waya and began to feel really good. I have to say I didnt have any juice at all until last night when I started to feel hungry. I made some fresh grape juice out of red seedless grapes. Wow. I have to buy more grapes!!!! It was really good!

I have always liked the way fruits tasted but I have this really wierd aversion to some textures. I cant eat it if its soft and mushy, it makes me gag. So I have mostly only eaten granny smith apples because they are crunchy. I am excited to tastes all the fruits that I havent eaten before like mango and kiwi. Yum. I think I will make a super fruity drink tomorrow from mango, kiwi and carrot.

Things I have noticed in the past 3 days. I am not bloated one bit. I do not feel uncomfortable. I usually have horrid cramps when AF comes and I didnt have any this time! Even though Im a little tired in the afternoons, I dont feel bad. I just want to relax.

I woke up this morning feeling fine. Not hung over or groggy or anything. I also slept really well last night. I made a blen of cantaloupe, lime, carrot and apple. It was ok. I wasnt too pleased with it so I only drank enough to be satisfied. I am going to do a salad for lunch with romaine lettuce, cucumber, carrot and a little bit of lemon. I think I am going to have to by an additional strainer to really get all the pulp out of the juice. I wasnt able to buy the best juicer but so far I am happy with mine. I just think one more time trough a strainer will do much better. Oh and I have to buy a cup I cant see through. The swamp sludge is getting to me:).

I work a full 8 hour day tonight. I hope that I will have enough energy to make it through.

2 down 28 to go

Well, I slept like a log last night!! I don't know if it had anything to do with the fast or I was just overworked at work. Huh. Nah, its probably the fast. Anyways, Im usually STARVED when I wake up and eat right after I pee. But this morning I wasnt hungry at all. It only 12:49 and Im starting to feel a little hungry so I will make a carrot and apple blend. I got all of my supplements today so I will be adding those in.

Im emotional but I think its just because of how stressed I am and all the things on my mind. None of which have to do with fasting. But anyways, I am so determined to do this. And oh yeah! I lost 2 pounds! Im now only 4 away from prepregnancy!!!!!!! Woo Hoo Go me. *insert goofy little dance here*

Around 2 pm I made a glass of apple juice using 2 gala apples and a granny smith(my favorite). I also added the supplement spirulina. Oh man that stuff looks nasty!!!! Its green and when you mix it with the juice it looks like swamp mud. I was nervous to drink it. Surprisingly it has no odor or tastes so once I got past drinking swamp sludge it was OK. I'm not sure what its supposed to do for you but Deborah suggested it and I am following her advice to the T.

All right, it's now 6pm. I took a nap and woke up hungry like I always am. I also had a bit of a headache. But that could have come from crying this morning. I made another glass of the melon blend which was even better than yesterdays.

I wont lie to you. I am hungry and I have thought about just quitting now. I hope in a few days it will get easier. I have to go buy more water and tomorrow start in the morning with all of my vitamins and supplements.

I also weighed a few hours ago and it was 143. In case you dont get it by the 15th day I am a scale whore. If there is a scale with in 5 feet of me I have to weigh. Its a habit that I just cant give up.

1 down 29 to go

Well the first day wasn't as bad as I thought it was going to be. I am used to not eating food at work so that part wasn't bad. It was the part when I DID get hungry that I couldn't just go get what I wanted. But I did drink my water. And I feel fine. I have a little headache which I will attribute to the lack of caffeine and chocolate. I had strenght at work and never felt light headed. All in all, the first day was easy!!! I expect it to change tomorrow though.

Day One

It's the first day. Weight-146. Days of not smoking-3.

I made a juice out of half a cantaloupe, a quarter of honeydew and about an eight of watermelon. I wasn't expecting that much juice! The melon are perfect right now. Very sweet. I have enough for lunch at work and then I will create some veggie combo when I get home if I am hungry. I have cut out a lot of food the past 2 days in preparation of today. Its also the time of the month where I have a natural lull in my appetite. Im nervous, excited and just ready to get on with it. My supplements should be here tomorrow. I think just one day without them will be ok.

Please pray for those who work around me.